I lost a testicle to an accidental discharge.

Summary

A firearms instructor and former military armorer describes a serious accidental discharge during a planned professional training exercise. He says he drew his concealed-carry handgun from a front holster and the round fired inside the holster.

He explains that the exact cause is unclear. He cannot rule out that his trigger finger or clothing/belt/holster snagged it during the draw. He plans to investigate further and later publish a follow-up video.

Injury and medical outcome

• He reports the bullet traveled extremely quickly (under half a second).
• He says it went through his holster, penis, and left testicle, describing it as a hollow-point round.
• He was rushed into surgery, and the left testicle was removed.
• He now has a catheter for about a month due to urinary tract damage.

He emphasizes the severity of the injury and suggests that, without the particular outcome, he could have suffered a far worse result.

Physical recovery

• Significant pain and many stitches
• Difficulty standing
• Much of his time is spent lying down
• He is off narcotics and mainly using ibuprofen for sleep, citing fear of opioid dependence and withdrawal

Mental and psychological impact

He describes strong guilt, shame, and self-hatred and says he has been advised to seek therapy. He reports that thoughts of handling a firearm now trigger nausea, sweating, and tremors, which he attributes to post-traumatic stress stemming from both his first-responder background and the accident itself.

Impact on daily life and work

• He cannot help with harvest/farm work
• Editing/production has slowed because standing is painful
• He mentions earlier editing modifications (like a standing desk), but current injuries prevent comfortable editing

Aftermath and support

He stresses he did not feel alone, praising emergency responders and colleagues who:

• stabilized him immediately
• got him to surgery
• provided ongoing support, including through family/community and online connections

Future plans

He states he is not stopping content creation, though recovery may slow upload frequency. He says another video is nearly finished (covering bowfishing and underwater exploration with an ROV) and that he intends to post updates about his healing and later share more details about the incident and the shock.

Presenters / Contributors

• Tim (video creator and speaker)