reaching out, asking help issue

Summary

The speaker is distressed about a project brief and feels she is making progress more slowly than expected. After spending two days second-guessing what the brief means, she feels embarrassed about updating the person who gave it to her and worries that asking for help will make her seem incapable.

She recognizes a pattern of trying to handle everything alone, holding herself to high standards, and struggling to make decisions when other people are involved. She wonders whether more independent work, such as character design, might suit her better, while also worrying about managing practical responsibilities in the future.

She reminds herself that small steps count, but remains unsure how to move forward. She plans to respond and try to make more progress, though the uncertainty is frustrating.

Other Moments

• She watched an episode of You and I Are Polar Opposites and related to both characters’ perspectives, while noting that real life is more complicated than a high-school romance.
• She journaled, ate, showered, washed her face, and played guitar and piano.
• She ate tomatoes her grandmother had prepared.
• She forgot to change her bolster and bed sheets.
• She wants to play badminton and is considering asking Jomi or someone else.

Notable References

You and I Are Polar Opposites; tomatoes; piano, guitar, and badminton; Jomi. The speaker is unnamed in the subtitles.